When I paint I love to lay color, line, pattern, and texture down in response to what layers were previously there. I love experiencing the potential of unformed thoughts in the moments before they take definite energetic shape, when meaning hovers between clouds of association and dreams. In the making, a larger whole emerges which I couldn't have planned beforehand.
For this project, created mostly while recuperating from unexpected surgery, I aimed to approach each studio day with few predetermined commitments as to what I'd keep and what I'd let go of and bury beneath layers. For this process I purposefully loosened expectations for how and why I create what I do. It felt luxurious to mix paint directly on the panels with little control over perfecting a stroke or a line but to instead savor the colors for their own sake in and of themselves.
In the process I aimed to let go of expectations for any preconceived favorable outcomes, and chose to focus on simply remembering the joy in the surprise of color mixing. In a life spent shouldering multiple responsibilities, painting provides me the space to relish the open and creative potential embedded in the unformed and the undetermined. The expansiveness becomes its own form of medicine, and color its own salve.